like johnson’s baby shampoo
” look ma, no more tears!”
yes, indeed drama season is officially over. thank you for understanding my emo-filled rollercoaster ride for the past few months.
happiness is a state of mind and at the same time something that is not achieved by one’s own strength. while people aim at being happy, i pray for joy and peace. and forgiveness and more understanding.
the long vacation taught me a lot of things. and now that i’m ready to roll with the punches.
-cubi, thankful for holy week
plurk much?
ang labo ng mundo. hindi ko maarok. kailangan ko ng paliwanag. at kailangan ko mag-isip.
yan lang ang dapat nyong malaman.
—cubi, exhausted
lessons are learned the hard way
i am the type of girlfriend who cannot take an absentee boyfriend– the kind who at one point in his life will forget that i exist. blame it on work, school, or extra-curricular activities. i know the world does not revolve around me, and life goes on even if i’m not around. but hey, absence makes the heart go fonder. so, i guess it’s healthy to sometimes leave them alone. i have one request though: don’t leave me in the dark or else i will try to find you and the other girl that you are hiding. the slightest provocation drives me to be the girlfriend turned espionage.
this guy that i like has this tendency to vanish after a while, and then show up again like we pick up where we were left the last time. it’s a vicious cycle i can’t stand, but somehow having lack of a better option permitted me to rely on him. i wanna believe that he likes me too, or else i’ll be some psycho stalking him. his behavior is disgruntling and fyi: we’re not even a couple.
i realized i go ballistic at the same problems and each time, he can only say the magic word to make me feel better. after watching he’s not just that into you, and experiencing the same pitfall over and over, i think i’ve had enough (i hope).
at the end of the day, i know that there is someone who will treat me like a princess. and if there isn’t, i guess i can take care of myself.
—cubi, disappointed
tell me why it feels like 2007 again
note: i rarely repost especially if it’s from my myspace blog. but i am overjoyed with the recent events in my lolife, so, enjoy. 
Current mood: 
contemplative
Category: Romance and Relationships
because i am a full-time student again. broke, but intelligently rich in stuff that i don’t get to apply yet in real life. something tells me i’m getting a job after a month.
because i just “broke up” with an ex and promised not to see him again.
because i am going out with someone who i don’t think will be part of my history anytime soon.choose between present and future.
because things are starting to feel weird and scary at the same time.
nelli, will stop watching those feel good chick flicks
ps.
my pe crush added me on facebook.
and yeah, i already have tickets to eheads, the final set. 
something to smile about valentines
growing up in a family that doesn’t celebrate Christmas or birthdays, it was natural for me to love valentines day and all the celebration it brings. I was a valentine baby after all (go figure). I find joy in looking at shopping windows and wondering how department stores literally paint the town red. Since my family was underprivileged, I found contentment in dreaming that someday, I will get to experience Valentines Day with that special someone and that day will be one of the best days of my life.
After 25 years of my existence in this world, I haven’t experienced my Valentine dream. But my best valentine memory would be attending UP Fair and feeling happy because I found a school that embraced me even if I’m different from the rest of the world. I find comfort in seeing the oblation and remembering how the school encouraged me to show what I can do to change the world and be one of the many selfless, sacrificial people who gave up their lives for the sake of our nation. This is definitely way better than finding romantic love that conforms to conditions like physical attraction, family approval and (believe it or not), same religion.
Five days to go and I still don’t have plans for Saturday. But I guess that’s better than senseless fights and recurring insecurities sometimes.
Happy Valentines everyone.
—cubi, will try to update the “about the writer” page soon J
complete hybernation
if you are reading this, you are lucky. because from now on, you know where to find me. ;p
—cubi, rrl mode
plurk edition
my ex-bestfriend (who happens to be the cousin of shem) and austra are plurk friends. ex-best invited me to do plurk.
and i read ex-best, austra and shem’s plurk updates.
nope, i am not getting a plurk account.
—cubi, sleepy
let go.move on.
after experiencing life-changing events in 24 hours, i am reminded by Job and his testimony. i constantly tell myself:
“the Lord gives and takes away. blessed be the name of the Lord”.
i feel that the Lord wants me to let go of the things i really love and move forward to His grand plan. wherever you lead me, help me follow You.
—cubi, about to sleep, but will pick herself up, dust off and start all over again.
back on blogosphere
forget about the guy on my last blog.
i shouldn’t be writing anything here anymore (like i already told you that a million times).
so expect more misadventures!
—cubi, cramming mode
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i refuse to like him.
i refuse to like him.
i refuse to like him.
i refuse to like him.
i refuse to like him.
i refuse to like him
and he can’t stop being lovely, as he naturally is.
he is really lucky.
–cubi, has a crush on someone
