scriptures on letting go, moving on and words of wisdom after being dumped by your (ex)boyfriend
blogging for me was never about world domination like pablo banilla’s multiply/friendster accounts or getting back at an ex-boyfriend like brian gorell’s blog. i wanted to understand myself better, make sense of the world, and yeah, a couple of months back, to recuperate from a very traumatic break-up.
i wanted the world to know that i was hurting (but almost never plugged my site except to less than 5 people). and i also wanted the pain to subside. today, as i write this blog, i feel like another chapter is beginning for me–literally and figuratively.
for some weird reason i’d check on my stats ever so often to make sure that my angsts stay within the confines of my “regular readers” (aka close friends). amazingly, i saw that one of my blog entries has reached more than 40 views. now i don’t know if i’ll be happy about it or scared that someone might just approach me and tell me how pathetic/bad/linguistically unappealing my blog is.
but seeing my site as part of the search results for “scripture for moving on/surviving post-breakup/letting go”, i can’t help but imagine what are the words of wisdom that readers can get from my blog…
and as for my new beginning, i am experiencing “emotional hyperventilation” at the moment and i plan to linger on the feeling for as long as i could. i don’t want to say i’ve found a new guy. i’d like to say someone makes me happy, and he doesn’t know it.
cubi,
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rebecca said,
June 12, 2009 at 10:50 am
I’m christian and was married thru religious beliefs to a muslim,i turned my back on god and he made sure he got me back.The ex walked out on me with his family,he was heavy into drugs,physical and emotional abuse towards myself.so when we split up,i found myself not being phased by it all,i became numb towards all that hurt and pain.eventually i meant someone who has been sent to me by God,we met each other at the right time in our lives.it’s been 8 months since we first started dating,and today i felt my past hurt taking over this relationship.i trust him completely but find myself doubting him for no reason,find something to make into a problem,snide comments and remarks.always saying that he is lying to me and always questioning his feelings and love for me.the sad thing is that he isnt doing anything of the sort.i realised that i havent let go of that pain and have carried it into my current relationship.i cried to work this morning cos all we did was fight and we left home so happy.this is really easier said than done,but carrying your pain from your past only makes you worse.i soon realised that i am the cause of my own unhappiness.he gives me love unconditionally and i have no reason to think otherwise.i have brought over my trust issues and fears into a good relationship.i also realised that if i dont do anything about it,i may loose my soulmate forever.i know that saying let go of your past is easy but when you have to practise what you preach,it’s a whole new ball game,and the only team member you can trust is God.I know i have to change my mindset to positive and as hard as it is going to be,i have decided that i am going to fight for this relationship and not let the devil win.i am a survivior,i have been through the devils playground and am victorious.My God is for me and I know that he will help us mend this expanding gap between us and restore the trust between us.
Modica said,
December 25, 2009 at 7:22 am
Nice idea! keep up the good work. Beatles